I’m not inpsired to post anything on this blog. I was drafting an update on the business (business is great we are doing the thang here in LaLa land) and a bit about the Mr. and Myself, because I feel like I owe ya’ll something. I gave great detail about our dating and pre-marital stuff and then nothing. Jilly from Philly and Ezell made me realize that love and relationship should not be spoken of too much, it should just be lived. Don’t bring attention to it. Heck even my non-famous blogging attracted hate.
Love is an energy, it powers things, you can’t invite different energy into your love space. Everyone doesn’t believe in true love. I’m not trying to make them, perception is reality. Hate (not the hater type hate, but the devil brand of hate) is also an energy, I don’t need it, don’t want it. Hate is an energy that has no faith in happy and will spend itself attempting to prove it fake, waiting for its death and sometimes trying to destroy it.
My mom always tells the new saints, to build and grow themselves in Christ before they go out trying to witness to folks. Of course you want to share the good news but you need to grow first. That’s how love is. You ever notice that those people happily married for 20+ years never volunteer marital advice? They just live.
Early this month we went to my family reuninon and my oft married and oft divorced male cousin voluntarily shared advice on timing of children. I asked him nothing! He told me what not to do blah blah blah. My other cousins, who have been married 27 years, just got their youngest child off to college last year and are now enjoying an empty nest, asked how married life was. We told them it was great and reminded them we’d just celebrated a year. They told us they’d just celebrated 27. We actually said “we’re enjoying it so much we don’t know how we’ll be willing to share our time with children.” They both said something like, the good thing is that God gives us everything in time. That nine months of pregnancy is a blessing of time. Now that was encouraging. Love encourages even as it advises.
Oh yeah, it’s my 3 year blogversary and 2 of those years have been spent here at blogsome. Blogspot will always feel more like home. I might move back over there because I like the setup. I started my blog because 2 of my cousins blogged on blogspot and I wanted to explore my own thoughts in a public domain.
The something I was fighting for and my tagline was: This fight is for my personal freedom of expression. My fight to express my thoughts of love, joy, pain, self revelation……… It’s my internal battle. It was a great journey, I learned alot. I won the battle and now I’m in a different space, which is why blogging here is sporadic. I’ve been trying to give but as I said the blog was for a specific purpose and that purpose has been fulfilled. I’m now enjoying the fruits of my personal digging and blogging over here is work. I’m still learning and growing, and I will continue to do that until…….
Holla!