I was writing my list of goals and I had about 10 of them and the reasons why they were on my goal list. I managed to delete a chunk of the first few and decided to take a moment to rethink them.
Most of them were centered about business. I love what I do and I’m anticipating the growth of our businesses. There was the goal to enjoy shopping which isn’t business but just enjoying what life and designers have to offer. Last year I was looking forward to this moment. I was anticipating when we’d be working on our businesses full time and the income from them would sustain us. Now I’m in that moment and here I am- not really enjoying or even noticing the accomplishment because I’m focused on the next thing.
My main goal (after I thought about all using today to plan for tomorrow and using tomorrow to plan for the next day) is not to rush myself and to enjoy each moment. To accept each moment for the lesson and the enjoyment it brings. It’s so easy to live in anticipation of what you expect in the future. It’s good to have a plan and I have one but I just really want to enjoy the milliseconds and not live today for what I’m expecting tomorrow.
It’s sorta like being pregnant and instead of enjoying the months of the pregnancy (I imagine there is enjoyment in an expanding belly) you spend then entire 10 months mentally fast forwarding and living for the babies arrival. The time flies by and you haven’t really gotten a chance to enjoy the new life being formed.
Well….. I want to enjoy the present moments of my life. We’ve all heard that the present is a gift- I want to treat it as such.
I wouldn’t do work now if the only enjoyment I got from the work was anticipating what I can buy when its over. I want to enjoy the work, gain some fulfillment and energy from the work and feel my pay at the end is an additional bonus.
My goal is to slow down, smell the roses, be still and watch the sun rise, be still and watch the sun set and remember that ‘right now’ has meaning.
My goal is to slow my thinking. I will not allow my mind to rush my present moments in anticipation of the moment I want to get to. The moment I am in, is the moment I wanted to get to and since I’m in that moment, I owe it to myself and I owe it to God to appreciate the present. I’m going to be more grateful.
A state of gratitude is an excellent place from which to grow in strength and character.
Comment by Sistah Ant — November 7, 2007 @ 1:57 pm